PrayingWithMyFingers

September the now. August the past. October the future. That about says it all. My past haunts me. My future is uncertain other than a certain death and, the now is where I am trying to live because looking behind me and looking too far into the future can be painful and/or fearful.
Yesterday, in an effort to break out of my self-centered and fearful mind, I attended my first meeting of the Florida Writers Association. To say the least, it was amazing. Such a diversity of people and, as I …

I am not sure where he was born, but April discovered him for sell in a Florida flea market. His price was discounted because of a cut on his back foot . Cost of one baby bunny: $11; Joy received: Priceless. Cuddles fit in the palm of my hand when I first met him and, although I had already hardened my heart against my daughter, April’s plan of bringing a bunny home during her college break that year, my hard heart melted when I held Cuddles in the palm of …

Good afternoon!  How are You?  It has been a really long time between visits.  I hope it’s ok that I’ve kind of been taking You for granted lately.  Isn’t it what You want after all?  For us to have such faith in You that we stop trying so hard to get Your love and just accept it?  Unfortunately, that’s not really the reason I haven’t shown up.
As You know, my last letter, “Roadblocks,” was during Lent and I was whining about the difficulty of change.  Now, weeks later, I am …

Dear God,
Lent:  Days 7, 8, 9 and 10 have come and gone.  Today is day 11.  Reminds me of that old saying, “nothing changes if nothing changes.”  I am an abject failure at Lent.  I want to be a true penitent and change my ways but the truth is I don’t want to go through the process of change.  I want You to wave a magic wand and make me perfect and wonderful without me having to suffer the disciplines required to change.  Truthfully, it is easier to languish in …

Dear God,
The function of self denial is to break up of my hardness of heart.  How do I become more of a giver and less of a taker?  How?  Surrender.  Here I am again trying to decide how I do this or I do that.  I can’t seem to remember that I cannot do the work of my own salvation.  I cannot even effectively surrender to allowing You, God to do what only You, God can do!  What You, God require of my soul is surrender.
I must become willing to …

Dear God,
What a beautiful day it has been!  And, it is so appropriate that Sunday is excluded as part of the Lenten fast and is celebrated as a “Feast” day.  The day has felt like a feast to me.  I slept in till almost 9am!  I hardly ever sleep past 7am and especially not since getting the puppies last October.
It was a lazy morning sipping coffee and then off to the 11:30am service at church.  The faithful were out in droves and it was hard to find a seat.  The …