PrayingWithMyFingers

Dear God,
You are such a trickster, a joker!  Your sense of humor makes me laugh.  There I was last night thinking I might “get out of” going to my AA meeting because I couldn’t find it.  Although it was a meeting place I had been to once or twice before and, I thought I remembered the location…..apparently not.  But there You were.  I was on the phone with Michael and, at just the moment I thought I’d head back home with my “good excuse,” Michael asked, “So what are you …

Dear God,
I don’t really feel like talking this morning.  Not sure where I am.  I am in a nowhere place.  Maybe like the Beatles’ Nowhere man?  “He’s a real nowhere man, sitting in his nowhere land, making all his nowhere plans for nobody, doesn’t have a point of view, knows not where he’s going to, isn’t he a bit like you and me?”  Gads!  Maybe I’m not quite that pessimistic!!  You’re right…….when have I ever not had a point of view???!
Last night was an open OA meeting.  That just means …

Dear God,
The month of July is an intense month for me as it brings back strong associations of pain and suffering.  Not only the ordinary childhood memories of the usual summer sufferings with my mother but also July 2001 was the summer April and I traveled to Haiti and I witnessed the extreme poverty and suffering of the Haitian people.  Additionally, upon my return home, Ed broke the news that he had lung cancer.
I went back to the July 17 entry for 2001 to remember more clearly and search for …

Dear God,
It feels great this morning to have my priorities back in order.  You first.  Well, almost.  Did my meditation and devotional reading but distracted from my writing by email offering books for $.25 each to join book club.  What good bookaholic could resist that?!  Dear God, am I addicted to everything??!
Last night was OA meeting with 7th step on the agenda.  I am bouncing all over the place with steps this week but any step better than none!  AA  always reminds me that there are no “accidents,” that I …

Dear God,
I am feeling crazed this morning.  I am dealing with a new Verizon setup before even having my 2nd cup of coffee.  In an effort to strengthen my online connections, I am going from air card to my-fi.  That has involved several hours on the phone with the Verizon team and waking up with them again this morning.  So, instead of going to my devotional corner and doing my prayers, I devoted myself to technology.  Result:  crazed.
Why is it so hard for me to put You first?  I think …

Dear God,
Ok.  So the gig is up and, I sooooooooo don’t want to have this conversation.  After all, this is embarrassing stuff.  Step One says it all, “Who cares to admit complete defeat?  Practically no one, of course. Every natural instinct cries out against the idea of personal powerlessness.  It is truly awful to admit that, glass (food) in hand, we have warped our minds into such an obsession for destructive drinking (eating) that only an act of Providence can remove it from us.”
Last night, I went to an OA …